..:: EmocjE ::..

Beethoven powiedział kiedyś, że muzyka jest doskonała wtedy, gdy słuchacz w pełni odczuwa emocje, jakie towarzyszyły kompozytorowi podczas tworzenie utworu. Na tym polega jej geniusz.

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I COULD HAVE LIED

There must be something in the way I feel
That she don't want me to feel
The stare she bares cut me
But I don't care you see so what if I bleed
I could never change just what I feel
My face will never show what is not real

A moutain never seem to have the need to speak
A look that shares so many seek
The sweetest feeling I got from you
The things I said to you were true
I could never change just what I feel
My face will never show what is not real

I could have lied I'm such a fool
My eyes could never never never keep their cool
Showed her and I told her how she struck me
But I'm fucked up now

But now she's gone yes she's gone away
A soulful song that would not stay
You see she hides cause she is scared
But I don't care I won't be spared

I could have lied I'm such a fool
My eyes could never never never keep their cool
Showed her and I told her how she struck me
But I'm fucked up now

I could have lied I'm such a fool
My eyes could never never never keep their cool
Showed her and I told her how she struck me
But I'm fucked up now

Fucked up now

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THIS VELVET GLOVE

Close to my skin
I'm falling in
Someone who's been
Sittin' by the phone
I'm left alone
In another zone
John says to live above hell
My will is well
No one is waiting
For me to fail
My will could sail
Yeah

It's such a waste to be wasted in the first place
I want to taste the taste of being face to face with common grace
To meditate on the warmest dream
And when I walk alone I listen to our secret theme

Your solar eyes are like nothing I have ever seen
Somebody close that can see right through
I'd take a fall and you know that I'd do anything
I will for you

Sailing for the sun
Cause there is one
Who knows where I'm from
I care for you
I really do I really do
Come closer now
So you can lie
Right by my side
Sit alone in the sun
I wrote a letter to you
Getting over myself

Your solar eyes are like nothing I have ever seen
Somebody close that can see right through
I'd take a fall and you know that I'd do anything
I will for you

Your solar eyes are like nothing I have ever seen
Somebody close that can see right through
I'd take a fall and you know that I'd do anything
I will for you

Close to my skin
Someone who's been
I'm a falling in
Disasters are
Just another star
Falling in my yard
John says to live above hell
My will is well
Long to be with
Someone to tell
I love your smell

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Boli mnie, jasna cholera, bardzo mnie boli. Ciągle od nowa. Najpierw odsunęła się ode mnie ciocia, którą bardzo lubiłam. Potem, w atmosferze skandalu odszedł chłopak, z którym po raz pierwszy w życiu wiązałam jakieś plany na przyszłość. Nie minęła chwila, a straciłam najlepszego przyjaciela- pogubiliśmy się w naszych uczuciach. Wszyscy mi udowadniają, jak złym, bezwartościowym człowiekiem jestem. Ale medal ma dwie strony. Pokazali mi, że człowiek nie jest w stanie wszystkiego znieść. Że nie da się ciągle wstawać i iść dalej. Że nie ma spokoju. Idą Święta. A ja jeszcze nigdy nie czułam się tak samotna wśród bliskich. Tak nieszczęśliwa.

Potrzebuję jakiejś zmiany. Upierdolę sobie rękę.

Tęsknię za Tobą, Maciek. Brakuje mi naszej przyjaźni. Świadomości, że wystarczy zadzwonić. Byłeś moim remedium na smutki. Tęsknię za Tobą.